Healing...

Elizabeth:

I have tried and tried tirelessly to find a way to express how I feel over the loss of my sweet baby. What I have found is there really are no words to convey the emotions I had towards the anticipated arrival of our second son. He was not always lifeless. Through the wonders of ultrasound I saw my sweet baby suck his thumb and practice swallowing, it was at those moments that I would get impatient about how long 9 months go by when you are waiting to hold one of the great loves of your life. God has graciously blessed our family with 5 wonderful children; 5 children that brought a smile to our face and a tear of joy to our eyes when we learned of each of their existences. My hopes and dreams for our 5th child did not materialize in the ways that I had imagined. I never was able to swaddle him and sing him a lullaby. I was never privileged to hear one of his cries and I never was able to teach him the most valuable of lessons. I will always miss those hopes; however, Ecc 7:3 says Sorrow is better than laughter, For by a sad countenance the heart is made better. I’m still searching as to how this will make my heart better, but I know that what I will learn from my dear Timothy will be honoring to God and those in my life. He was our 5th child and he was as loved and as longed for as our first. He will be greatly missed.

Thank you again from the bottom of our hearts for the continued love and support so many of you have shown. We are truely blessed with such wonderful friends and family. While the days are not getting any easier it is comforting to know that we have so many loving supporters.

Family Photos

Today Jesse and Elizabeth did the hardest thing imaginable for any parents, they laid their little one down to rest. This morning at Abbey Cemetery, Baby Timothy Anderson said his last good bye to his parents and was laid to rest. He is in a beautiful spot with lots of other little ones who have passed on looking out on a beautiful green and grassy hill. It was a private ceremony with church songs, prayer and lots of love. Yesterday was the Memorial Service at the Church of Christ. Many kind and touching words were read and a picture slide show was watched. It was wonderful to see all who came for love and support and after the service everyone was given a baby blue balloon which we all released outside in the parking lot. It was breathtaking sight to see so many balloons float off to heaven.

Again, thank you to everyone who has and continues to show so much love and support to the Gonzalez Family. They are truly blessed to have such loving and supportive family and friends.

Memorial Fund

The Gonzalez Family would like to extend a huge THANK YOU for all of the love, support and comfort they have been receiving in the last few days. I was talking to Elizabeth today who told me that she feels so touched and blessed to have such supporting friends and family. She says she doesn't know what she would have done with out such a supporting circle.

Thank you again for all the love that you have all been showing to all of the Gonzalez Family. It means so much to be so loved and cared for. I know that if the roles were reversed that Jesse and Elizabeth and all of their family would be right there helping in anyway that they could.

John 13:35
By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.

Memorial Service

The Memorial Service for Baby Timothy is scheduled for:
Thursday October 9th at 11:00 AM

Lunch will be served at the church building following the service.

Baby Timothy is with the Angels

Today was very special family time for all of the Gonzalez's, Rachel, Jonathan, Sarah and Tabitha went to the hospital this morning to see baby Timothy and to take family photos. They all got to see him, talk to him, love him and then they all got to say their goodbyes. Elizabeth's 2 sisters and one of her brothers came out from Texas and Louisiana to be with her and to see their newest nephew. Later on in the afternoon Elizabeth and Jesse sat with baby Timothy held him, loved on him and said their final goodbyes as he went back to heaven with our Lord.

The hospital has been filled with love and comfort for Jesse and Elizabeth and their family these last few days. Family and friends have come to visit from all over San Diego and from out of state and shown so much love.

The details of his condition were confirmed last night, a blood clot formed and went to his brain which caused his tiny little body to have a stroke; it happened in an instant. As said in a previous posts, Baby Timothy had little to no brain activity and there was nothing further that the doctors could do. We know that God has taken the Gonzalez's little angel back to heaven and he is happy there free from all pain.

As the days go on the Gonzalez's will need all of your prayers and support during this very hard time.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" -Philippians 4:13

A Memorial Service is tentatively scheduled for this coming Thursday at Bostonia Church of Christ in El Cajon. We will keep you updated with exact times.
Thank you for all of your love and support and please keep praying.

"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way."

MRI results

I spoke with Jesse this morning and he said that after meeting with the doctor this morning on the MRI results, there is no new news. Nothing has changed and the MRI did not reveal anything new, as a matter of fact, it came back good. However, the EEG (brain waves test) still showed no activity. The doctors are going to do some more tests but so far nothing has changed. Keep praying!!!

Update on Wednesday evening

Please Please Please keep Baby Timothy and the Gonzalez's in your prayers. Please pray for a miracle, pray that he will wake up and be fine, pray that he will grow up to be a strong little boy just like his brother Jonathan. This evening things did not look good after the results of the tests came back. He does not seem to have any brain activity and doctors have warned Jesse and Elizabeth that once he is taken off the ventilator that he will pass. He was taken to get a MRI at 8 pm this evening and the results will be back at 8 am on tomorrow (thursday) morning. I will post as soon as I get word. Please pray for Timothy but also pray for comfort and strength for Elizabeth, Jesse and the kids.

Prayers for Baby Timothy Anderson Gonzalez

Some of you may know by now and others may not, Elizabeth went to the hospital last night because she had not felt the baby kick since the afternoon. She wanted to make sure that everything was ok so she and Jesse headed off to Mary Birch in San Diego for a check up. Around midnight Jesse called home to inform us that the baby had a good heart beat but that the doctors still wanted to do more tests. Around 2:30 AM Jesse called again and let us know that Elizabeth had just come out of an emergency C-Section and that she was recovering and the baby was down in the NICU. Immediately prior to the C-Section doctors had been trying to stimulate the baby but after 30 minutes of stimulas he still was not responding and that called for an emergency C-Section. By 7 AM this morning, Baby Timothy, still was not responding to any stimulation but his lungs are developed pretty good for a 30 week old. He came out at 2 lbs, 15 oz and was around 16 inches long, not bad for a little guy who wasn't scheduled for delivery until December 7th. As I write this blog entry Baby Timothy was still not responding to stimulation but did give a little kick while taking a bath. We are still waiting for test results to come in this evening and we will keep this blog updated with any changes and news. Please keep Elizabeth, the Gonzalez's and especially Baby Timothy in your prayers as often as possible.

As of right now Elizabeth is trying to regain her strength so that she can spend most of her time down in the NICU with Timothy so she is limiting her visitation time to resting. She is expected to be in the hospital for at least 3-4 days but we will be showing her this blog and your words of encouragement everyday.